Jennifer Lopez confides without filter to Vogue, from her marriage to Ben Affleck to her new album

At the same time, the singer begins in private a process of introspection and personal development that emanates from her experience of motherhood. She realizes that her unsuccessful romantic relationships have followed recurring patterns and finally feels ready to break them. “I used to bend over backwards for others thinking it was a noble thing, to put me on the back burner. But I had it all wrong. And when I realized I was unhappy, it was too late. That’s what I felt for a long time. I knew I had to pull myself together, not just for myself, but also for my children. And even from there, with all my good will, it took me years and years to really put the pieces back together.”


“Both of us got lost and then found each other,” says Jennifer Lopez of actor Ben Affleck, whom she married this summer. Jacket, bra and skirt, Dior. Boots, Alaïa.

A long journey to take care of your mental health

Jennifer Lopez grew up in Castle Hill, a neighborhood in Bronx, New York, in what she describes as a typical middle-class Puerto Rican home. From childhood, she worked for her future greatness: strict education, church every Sunday, early taste for musicals, brilliant athletic career in high school. His mother, Guadalupe Rodriguez, is as young and funny as she is badass. Often overwhelmed by her three daughters, she sometimes resorts to corporal punishment, a tendency that jlo will for a long time be attributed to the era and its uses. “We feared her as much as we respected her, she recalls. Let’s just say she did what she could to keep us on the straight and narrow.” As for David Lopez, his father, he works at night and spends little time with his family. When her parents divorced after 33 years of marriage, the little Jennifer Lopez saw it as a real shock.

Throughout our conversation, the singer talks about the things that do her good: meditation, psychotherapy, psychiatry, coaching. She recently tackled her most ambitious project, that of overcoming the traumas of her childhood and their current repercussions, which manifest themselves in the form of unhealthy attachments, a project which she intends to carry out with the same degree of intensity as that that she applied to her career. “My parents taught me the value of hard work and the importance of being a good person,” she explains. But it’s the way to combine the two that I had to figure out on my own. Parents are like positive or negative role models that we have to overcome in life. Their way of being, of loving me, of teaching me to love: all of this shaped me on a personal level.”

Jennifer Lopez’s new album is in the works

I find Jennifer Lopez a few days later to continue our interview. She arranged to meet me at breakfast time at the Polo Lounge at the Beverly Hills Hotel. Our table is located at the far end of the garden, and a large potted plant acts as a safety barrier. The restaurant is something of a default meeting point for residents of upscale LA neighborhoods like Bel Air and Holmby Hills. The singer arrives without her bodyguard. If her private life belongs to her, she is also keen to show that she remains a person like the others, despite her celebrity. “The other day, she recalls, one of my children wanted to go to the flea market. When I offered to accompany him, he replied: ‘Sorry, mum, but you know how it is when you’re here…’ That hurt me a little. I understand, huh. They want to spend time with their friends without being hounded by paparazzi, and that’s normal. I know it. They don’t tell me directly, but I know it.”

Jennifer Lopez confides without filter to Vogue, from her marriage to Ben Affleck to her new album